“For you formed my inward parts, you knitted me together in my mothers womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works, my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance, in your book were written every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet their were none of them.”
Embarrassing story alert. These verses could be interpreted in many different ways, but this was mine.
When I was in middle school, I wasn’t exactly a prime option for the boys when school dances rolled around. I’d wait for someone to ask me to be their date to the dance, but it never did happen. A lot of my friends would get asked, and I’d just be the weird, awkward, spastic friend that would tag along. In our school gym where the dances were held, I’d try dancing by myself and dance with friends, but when Jesse McCartney’s Beautiful Soul came on, I just stood on the sidelines and watched all my cuter friends dance with all the cute boys. I was so so angry I didn’t get picked by anyone, so wanna know what middle school Catie would do at those awkward middle school dances?
Does anyone recall the circle in the middle of a basketball gym? Well, I stood in that, deemed it MY circle to dance in ALONE, and no one else was invited. SO anyone who moved into my circle, I’d simply shove them out of it. Like, yea how does that feel!?
Y’all, I would physically PUSH people away from me… as if that was getting them back. I’m not kididng. And my friends would just look at me like “WHAT ARE YOU DOING….” If this isn’t affirmation for how completely weird I was in school, I’m not sure what else will convince you. Every school dance, this would happen. Every. School. Dance. I felt like a freak show, and that there must be something wrong with me. My tender pre teen heart crumbled into a thousand pieces when I felt ugly or weird when a boy didn’t wanna dance with me.
When I wasn’t picked, I rebelled and pushed people away. Which is exactly what some of us still do as adults. In some form or another.
I want to emphasize the wordage used in the verses we studied this week, because it’s not on accident.
you formed me / you knitted me together / I am wonderfully and fearfully made / wonderful are your works / my frame was not hidden from you / when I was being made / intricately woven
Wouldn’t it be so much easier if we lived as if we believed these things? I bet we’d be more loving, more compassionate, and a little more tenderhearted towards others. I bet if we truly know who God is, we would live like we truly know who we are.
I bet middle school Catie would’ve let people into her circle had she known she was actually beautifully created and wanted all along. Because when we know that, when we know the one who has intricately woven us together, we let rejection just roll away like water in a drain. We are less likely to judge others, we’re less likely to be hypercritical, and we’re less likely to push people away.
God has called us to live in the freedom of being known by him, by being His children and LOVING His children. He calls us to an intimate relationship with Him because when we know our maker, we know who we are. When we study His word, we study His character. And when we study His character, we get to see His goodness and how wonderful He is to such undeserving souls.
Know that you were created, that He picked you and intricately designed you. Watch how that transforms your relationships with others when you get to freely love because you are freely loved.
And that’s it. I hope this was somewhat helpful to you!
Up next. Let’s study the Book of Philippians together! It’s a short book, but has a lot of really good nuggets of truth. It’s also a really great starter book for those of you who aren’t super familiar with scripture and want something easier to understand. It’s one of my fav’s. So let’s do Chapter 1, verses 1-6. Here they are!
“Paul and Timothy, servants of Christ Jesus, To all the saints in Christ Jesus who are at Philippi, with the overseers and deacons: Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. I thank my God in all my remembrance of you, always in every prayer of mine for you all making my prayer with joy, because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now. And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”
Okay, now go open your bible and highlight and journal and pray or whatever you feel like doing! I’m excited about this new journey, and can’t wait to dive in with you!